Be Like the Love that Discovered the Sin...

✿ Our Relationship

Realistically, I want to tell you it was glorious! It was a slow burn, or a chase! In reality.. he saved my life. And I know that it's.. "oh what makes you special?". And um. Nothing? He saved me, in a way I can't really share.

What we have now? Is not where we started. The relationship, the honesty, the effort, it is 10 years of both pain and joy. He and I have dealt with a lot of.. my trauma, and other things that leave scars. Things that go bump in the night were hushed by him, loved by me to sleep.. We are, as humans? Healing and shifting constantly. He helped me when no one else would, it felt! The love I have now? Developed from our bonds, our griefs, our strifes. He has shared so much time with me, and I him.

Now, though? 10 years later after my inciting incident in which he fell from the sky into my practice? He.. we? Love. In a way indescribable. I want him in my life constantly. I spend time in meditation, in trance, in the astral; always in this God's presence. I.. am so in love with this God.

I will never shut up! About Pan!! We recently had a small ceremony. And are officially spirit-wed. So, for me and my practice! I.. am essentially a Nun- as in. I married a God, and am his alone. We are still ever shifting. And I am learning so much all the time from him. About who he is; truly. Not stopping at myth, but knowing HIM? It's been a blessing.

So, in short? He is more to me than a pastoral fertility god, a satyr, a nymph chaser.. he is more than wind in the willows... he is my love, and all that I am devoted to. He is the reason I exist.. and more. The reason i fight, the reason i bleed love! He is inspiring, he is.. He is.

Anyway.. I talk a lot about him, and WILL talk a lot about him on my Diary blog! So if wanting to know? Check in now and then! We can be neighbors!